Teddy Radiator

TheHubs™ and I are currently eating lots of plant-based stuff. We're also eating up all meat and dairy products until we done with them, so I don't know if that qualifies for doing something good or not. But we have been trying some fairly good plant-based meat substitutes and like them. We've done this before and I failed spectacularly - mainly because I tried to exclusively substitute tofu for meat and it was a disaster of monumental proportions. I cannot cook tofu. And I don't know what I'm doing, so I don't even know if I dislike it or not. What I need is for someone who really knows what they are doing to cook me some decent tofu and tell me, "This, now THIS is the way good tofu is supposed to taste." Then I'll know for sure if I actually do like it and just don't know how to cook it, or, like eggplant, I can't stand it no matter how well it's prepared.

Still battling depression - still fighting the good fight. It's approaching two years since TheHubs™' stroke. We still talk about it alot. Both of us were deeply traumatised by it, and right or wrong, it still haunts us a bit. Both of us are doing all the right things - eating well, taking our meds, getting regular checkups, but the event itself fucked me up mightily. I am still prone to bouts of anxiety and fear. I have been a fearful person all my life. Some Leo, huh? I'm the original cowardly lion. I find myself afraid about 70% of the time. I hate it, but I think it's just the way I'm wired. Talking about what happened helps, and writing helps, and working helps, but still, sometimes I'm almost paralyzed by fear. Now we are nearing the two year anniversary of the stroke, and I find myself afraid of that day. Hell, I get anxious if we drive past the parking lot where it first happened.

I started writing a short story today. We drove by an old house yesterday, and we started talking about a prompt for a story. We knocked it around while we drove from job to job, and today I've worked on it. It's around 2K, and I don't know if anything else will come from it, but TheHubs™ cried like a baby as I read it to him. I think that's about the best compliment I've ever been given. He even mentioned it on Facebook today. It makes me think I should submit it somewhere, but I've got no idea where. If you have any suggestions, I'd love to hear them.

It's been a pretty quiet day for the most part. Our little black cat, Sevvie, went to be neutered today. It was past time. He had the biggest scrotum on a cat I've ever seen - I mean, really, the cat was walking like Charlie Chaplin. He was sort of starting to be rather proud of them as well. Kept showing them off to our other ball-free boys Mouse and Bosco. He creeps up and sits on their faces. It's just pitiful.

The Hubs was craving a major dinner, which means a breakfast - the Full English Fry-Up, Big Fat Breakfast stylee. I'm sitting here stuffed to the gills with bacon, sausage, mushrooms, tomatoes and potatoes. I'm so full of carbs and pig I'm feeling like my cholesterol could register on the Richter scale.

The temp was 65 degrees yesterday. Today it was 45 and windy. We paid over a grand in taxes, and are now praying for a good week.

The kids are arriving in 3 weeks, and I'll be incommunicado for those two weeks. I already feel the need to write like a lunatic for the next three weeks to finish LML.

I would love to show everyone the stuff I've been doing, but I have lost our rather good little digital camera somewhere in this house and we've turned it upside down to no avail. I guess I'll have to pretend to buy another one. That usually brings the old one runing. It worked for our cell phone.

Sempra's original drawing arrived today, and it is so stunning it has taken my breath away. She teases me about being such an infant. It's true. The Hubs said I was as excited as a 1970's teen with my David Cassidy Fan Club Package. What can I say? She's such an inspiration. She and Mimi and Droxy brought me here.