I Can't Put This Off Much Longer...

[teddy_radiator]

Okay. Way back in history, about 100 years ago, I started a story called Lay Me Low. It grew, as most monsters do, very quickly and took over everything in its path, including my sanity. Now, that's not necessarily a bad thing. I'm about 5/6ths of the way through it, and it has been moderately successful.

However, at about the same time, droxy won a story from me for TPP's Every Flavour Auction. She gave me a very good prompt, and I started on the story. However, I found that, since I was already hot and heavy into Lay Me Low, the story lines were starting to blur in my head, and I asked Droxy's permission to finish LML before starting on her fic. She graciously accepted.

Oh, and then the Exchange came along, and dark arts drabble contest and birthdays with fics came along and DMuse filled my head with GS100 drabbles that had to be written and Fresme essays which were great fun and ... well, this saga is writing itself, isn't it?

I am still working on LML. It is, and I apologise for stating the obvious, AUGUST. I promised her that fic in January. I am starting to feel 1) unworthy of Droxy and 2) that TPP will ban me forever for welching.

I think I am going to have to buckle down, and get this story done. I feel positively riddled with guilt that I haven't really torn into it yet. It isn't right. Droxy has been too good to me to give her less than my best, most concentrated effort.

I am having a word with DMuse this evening. He and I are going to have a chat about it. Then I'm going to consult stgulik, the beta goddess, who is so good at cutting through my BS and laying it the way it should play. I rattled out two exchange fics in July. I should be able to do this.

And to everyone who has ever asked me to write a fic for them: I will do it. I promise. I will not let you down - it just might take me a year to prove it.

Comments

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

It's not when you have too many ideas to possibly carry out that you should worry. It's when they stop coming....

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

True, but I really do wish sometimes that I could plug a USB cable in my head and download what's in my head - it's the typing out that causes the problems.

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

That would be awesome! That in itself is a story idea. Of course, something would go tragically wrong for the inventor....

[sabrebabe.livejournal.com]

Now there's a misuse of a Muggle Artifact if I've ever heard one... Now write the story! >:D

[droxy.livejournal.com]

I hate typing. FWIW Take yer time.

I am patient. You will make some fangurls very happy with the exchange.

I know my challenge was a hard one, it was to push you someplace you havent been before. Take your time with it. When ready, post to TPP archive.

I want that USB to download the movies in my head.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I know you are patient, but I also want to give you something good, and sort of prove to myself and others that I'm not just a smut writer.

I'd love to download the movies, but I'm afraid I'd fry the cable - I really have a lot of filthy things sloshing around in here.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Yes, I really want to. I just need to work feverishly on these, because I know when I get a job, my writing time will be cut in half. I hate the thought of it, but hey, we gotta eat!

[justpinkpastel.livejournal.com]

DMuse knows what's best. You need to trust him. Have your conversation with him this evening and talk about what would be in your and his best interest. He hasn't led you astray, and I don't think he will any time soon.

Dahlra is a gracious Muse and he will lead you in the right direction, whether it is taking a break from LML and working on Droxy's fic, or some other direction.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I know there is a need to finish LML, but I feel bad about Droxy's fic. She's super patient and has told me to take my time, but I think I'm just taking the mickey being so late. I mean, Aurette only posted hers last month, but it was a masterpiece of writing and well worth the wait. I don't know if you will be able to say the same for mine!

[severus49.livejournal.com]

You know what sux? When you have the world's greatest ideas for your fic when you're in bed at night ready to go to sleep, and you're too damn tired to get up and write them down. Then the next day they're totally gone! GAH!

So what you're going through really isn't that bad. I know that LML WILL get finished 'cause you're like that - you don't leave things hanging too long (IMHO it hasn't been too long yet). Sometimes it's just really hard to compartmentalize our creative brains. It's easy to organize the closet or our coupons, but fukc the creativity slots! One thing at a time is sometimes the only way you can do it.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

OH, DMuse often wakes me up around 4 or 5 in the morning, whispering all sorts of dirty secrets in my ear! lol Some I remember, some I don't. The really big ones - he drags me out of bed and makes me type them out!

I've actually got LML 22 at the Cleaners, and 23 is clipping along tonight - it's been flying out of my fingers. I'm just a few paragraphs away from finishing that chapter, so it's going pretty well.