Just In The Mood To Ramble...
Jul. 24th, 2011 03:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
teddy_radiatorAnother week of job hunting and writing, really. Nothing out of the ordinary, nothing profound, nothing interesting. I am not exactly restless, but definitely suffering a bit of ennui.
The recording is coming along, slowly. I haven't used Adobe Audition in over a year, and it shows. It takes me forever to remember how to do the simplest of tasks in it.
I've turned in two exchange fics, and I really want to start reading - I'm soooo looking forward to seeing everyone's fics. I'm sorry the exchange mods have had a rough time of it, what with drop-outs and extension requests, especially since this is my first year, but what fun I had writing. God, I love to write. If I don't write something every day, I feel wrong. It must be how artists like![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sempraseverus , mimimanderly and howlingmojo feel when they don't draw every day. I envy you ladies (and so many other of you who are phenomenal artists), but I understand the need and addictive pleasure of simply creating something from within.
I think that's the sad thing about the whole Amy Winehouse thing. Such a creative talent, but opiates destroy creativity, IMHO, or rather, the addiction to them. I think she just got worn down, and it was pitiful to see her struggling so much. Well, I think she may be somewhere now where she can enjoy herself. Poor little lost one.
We all have our weaknesses; sometimes I think that's all I'm made of. I'm staring down the loaded end of my 49th birthday this week, and I feel slightly sick that I'm not quite where I wanted to be. Yet. But at the end of that tunnel, I can see light, and that comforts me. I don't know when I'll reach it, but I know it's there. IN the meantime, there is such joy in writing, in reading beautifully crafted fics (The next chapter ofsubvers 's Owned is up and instantly comes to mind), looking at beautiful drawings, like Sempra AccioHope, and Mimi's Tarot, which pleases me more than I can say. I am surrounded by creativity here, and it just fuels me like high-octane love.
Sorry to get so mawkish, but there you have it. You all are my addiction. Someone, I think it wasdhark_charlotte , had a userpic that said: "LiveJournal: The real reason your house is a f*(%ing disaster". Yes, my friends, that would be me.
I know that when I get a job (cross fingers, light candles, sacrifice blonds) I won't have this much freedom, so now I'm enjoying it to the hilt.
The recording is coming along, slowly. I haven't used Adobe Audition in over a year, and it shows. It takes me forever to remember how to do the simplest of tasks in it.
I've turned in two exchange fics, and I really want to start reading - I'm soooo looking forward to seeing everyone's fics. I'm sorry the exchange mods have had a rough time of it, what with drop-outs and extension requests, especially since this is my first year, but what fun I had writing. God, I love to write. If I don't write something every day, I feel wrong. It must be how artists like
sempraseverus , mimimanderly and howlingmojo feel when they don't draw every day. I envy you ladies (and so many other of you who are phenomenal artists), but I understand the need and addictive pleasure of simply creating something from within.I think that's the sad thing about the whole Amy Winehouse thing. Such a creative talent, but opiates destroy creativity, IMHO, or rather, the addiction to them. I think she just got worn down, and it was pitiful to see her struggling so much. Well, I think she may be somewhere now where she can enjoy herself. Poor little lost one.
We all have our weaknesses; sometimes I think that's all I'm made of. I'm staring down the loaded end of my 49th birthday this week, and I feel slightly sick that I'm not quite where I wanted to be. Yet. But at the end of that tunnel, I can see light, and that comforts me. I don't know when I'll reach it, but I know it's there. IN the meantime, there is such joy in writing, in reading beautifully crafted fics (The next chapter of
subvers 's Owned is up and instantly comes to mind), looking at beautiful drawings, like Sempra AccioHope, and Mimi's Tarot, which pleases me more than I can say. I am surrounded by creativity here, and it just fuels me like high-octane love.Sorry to get so mawkish, but there you have it. You all are my addiction. Someone, I think it was
dhark_charlotte , had a userpic that said: "LiveJournal: The real reason your house is a f*(%ing disaster". Yes, my friends, that would be me.I know that when I get a job (cross fingers, light candles, sacrifice blonds) I won't have this much freedom, so now I'm enjoying it to the hilt.
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Date: 2011-07-29 03:59 pm (UTC)Oh, age as a number doesn't bother as much as it did 10 years ago, that's a fact. And I still feel around 25 or so (when my old bones don't remind me otherwise!) But no, I'm not complaining. Being 49 and alive sure beats the alternative!