I Just Hope I Don't Regret This

[teddy_radiator]

I have made the decision to join Facebook again. From a purely practical standpoint I can get the Go Fund Me to a more local group. And from a personal standpoint, I dropped out last year because I got so damn tired of seeing Trev flirting with his new woman, and I was ashamed.

Ashamed I had been so smug about bragging on my solid happy marriage only to discover what a lie that was.

Now I just don't care. And I'm tired of feeling like I'm punishing myself, hiding my shame for his fuck ups. I'm keeping a fairly low profile, but I'm still there as Teddy Raye, so please add me as a friend.

Comments

[beffeysue.livejournal.com]

I will!!!

[nocturnus33]

It's a good thing for you to do. Trev should be ashamed, not you.
My Facebook is mostly Chilean politics and educational stuff, all in Spanish. Not very entertaining.

[gelsey.livejournal.com]

Hugs! I'm mainly there from the memes and the pictures and book club.

[stgulik.livejournal.com]

I added you this morning. Do you like Instagram? Unlike FB and other sites, I reserve it strictly as a platform to see family & friend pictures. If anybody puts up even one meme, I promptly unfollow. Consequently, it's unusually serene there. :D

I liked your remark when Trev said your Go Fund Me page airs the dirty laundry. You said something like, yours isn't the laundry that's dirty! He doesn't deserve a moment's consideration.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I did have an Instagram account but I wasn't sure what to do with it. I'm starting out with only the safe friends, and keeping a low profile, but it feels nice to step out of the darkness again.

[hbartthe2nd.livejournal.com]

I don’t really do much with social media, so I can neither friend you nor give any advice on whether it is a good or bad idea. But you were the bigger person in this scenario. He gave up the right to not be ashamed or embarrassed when he did something worthy of those emotions. Don’t forget that!

[blueartemis07.livejournal.com]

None of that shame should be yours. You weren't smug, you were celebrating what you thought you had. It isn't your fault he is nastier than a troll bogey.

[delphipsmith]

Given that I loathe the Social Network of Evil with a fury like the burning of a thousand suns, I can't friend you there. But I'm here for you!!!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I understand completely. I don't really like being there either, but I needed to reconnect to friends who are close by.

[lemonade8.livejournal.com]

I miss your posts! Also, being supportive and positive about your relationship isn't bragging. Do you know how happy I would be if a special someone focused on my good instead of my faults? Actually, I would love to be that positive, myself. You are just awesome partner goals, that's all. And who among us haven't had a rug pulled out from under us?

Is he going away soon? I would think it would be hard to keep living with him. (((hugs)))

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Please friend me! I'm still trying to locate everyone on FB. It's strange to be back but the reception I've received has been gratifying. Trev is leaving for a two week trip, and hopefully, if I can pay him the money he wants, he says he will be gone for good by April. It sometimes amazes me that I can write that so easily, when I know it will be the worst day of my life. And yet, it will be the day that I begin to heal. And the day I find peace.