What Is Going On?

[teddy_radiator]

It feels so weird in this body sometimes. It's like everything is off kilter, like the universe is tripping blithely on, and I'm out of sync and out of touch, and nothing I say or do feels like the right thing. That's my world right now. I feel like I stepped off the merry-go-round for a minute and now, not only can I not find my horse, but I can't find a way to step back on.

I know I'm being self-centered, whinging on about my inadequacies. It's just one of those days. I bet you can set your calendar by them, looking back at my posts. I'm on the outside looking in, and in is where everything is, including you, friends, life, and most importantly, DMuse.

I'll be back later.

Comments

[reg-flint.livejournal.com]

DO be back later. I like hearing from you, and I'm kind of narcissistic and paranoid too, so you can whinge in company ;)

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

Well, for what it's worth, you always seem to say the right thing to ME. I don't know how I would have gotten through the last few days if not for my friends -- particularly you and Sempra. I hope you feel better later on. If not, give me a call. I'll be around reading and drawing this evening. I'm not a COMPLETE phone-o-phobe!

Everything is a cycle, love, and this, too, shall pass....

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thank you, sweetie, as always, for saying the right thing. I spent the afternoon at an art fair, listening to my buddy Chris Branch and baking in the 90 degree sun, and that helped quite a bit.

I was just feeling a little out of touch, and couldn't connect with anything. I feel a little more connected now.

I am writing, and that is a blessing, but I am feeling like writing song lyrics. That's what he's wanting this evening.

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

Ya gotta do what the Muse dictates.

I'm currently reading The Sempra Deck. Aaaaaand I finished reading the book I was reading, so I've started on Her Minder. I'm just up to the part where she was rescued and is recovering. Boy howdy, but you certainly have a talent for description! I could SEE her cell in astounding detail. D's voice is just like Rickman's. Like buttah!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I got to have a lot of fun with Dahlra and Sydney. He loves it - I think he is proud of it!

I hope you enjoy both of them. yep, he's been that way for many a year. rickman just happened to be the one that he sounds the most like him to me - although I have heard him in other voices, like Daniel Craig and Donald Sutherland, and in this guy I used to work with in England.

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

I didn't expect the end of the world... but I took my shower early this evening, just in case. They say that cleanliness is next to godliness, and I figured I'd need all the help I could get. Wondered briefly, as I was toweling off, whether the Brazilian and the red bra would automatically relegate me to Hell. Hoped that "Old Testament Jehovah" was not doing the judging on Judgement Day; he's so tough, he makes Simon Cowell look like a sycophant. I think Jesus would be more lenient, and would understand "hey, it's just fashion, dude"....

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Do you do your own brazilian? I'm asking purely for research purposes, you know. I've got a big sex scene to write and it HAS to be accurate.

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

Yup. Just with a regular ole safety razor. One day I just decided that I can dye the hair on my head all I want to... but if I saw a grey hair down THERE, there was no way I could hide safely in the arms of denial.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

In my younger days I decided to give myself a bit of colour there. Believe me, you just don't want to go there. I walked like John Wayne for a week.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Sempralove. I feel the love and positive flow going through me. DMuse and I have spent a lovely afternoon in the baking sun of SC, and he has guided and enriched me as well, but feeling the love of your friends is a strong healing potion.

Congrats on the puppy - the world may still be rolling on, but at least we can say we survived the rapture. Hell, I've survived a few in this lifetime, and the only thing I wanted after was a cigarette...

[sandlappershell.livejournal.com]

'twas a beautiful day today, indeed! I hope your dose of Vitamin D made everything all better...or at least, more tolerable! Thinking lovely thoughts and hugs your way!

[morethansirius.livejournal.com]

Please do be back, preferably sooner than later!

I know how you feel at times. Personally, I've felt like I just needed to close my eyes and jump back on. Any horse is better than standing around watching everything pass me by.

Oooh, look! It's a unicorn!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

LOL... I really do have the best friends....

the image of SeverusMuse reaching out to me - I guess I better grab his *ahem* brass ring and ride!

One horned pony - you are so naughty, Sempra!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Wise and comforting words, sweetie. I'm okay, just a little out of sorts. I feel the love coming at me. I feel better, and you are absolutely right. Normally, I can fight it, but sometimes....

I've got my boxing gloves back on. Bless you for your encouragement. In the great universe of karma, you are circling with the angels.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

It is my pleasure to bring happiness to my talented friends - what better way than to show off their art than to put it in a nice shiny book? I love your art so much, and it inspires me all the time, so I wanted you to see it the way I see it!

I rather selfishly put all MY favourites, but if you tell me your favourites, I'll put them together in a similar book!

I'm just so glad you like it...the Muse wanted me to add all the little fiddly bits...the teapot on the backpage is me, but the rest is all you, baby...

[talesofsnape.livejournal.com]

It's one of those days, but this too will pass...

You'll be reunited with us and your muse before too long.