Well, You Cant Have Everything - Where Would You Put It?

[teddy_radiator]

It looks like Chapter 20 of Lay Me Low won't be forthcoming from the laptop. Dom Brian has just too much on his plate right now to do all the necessary little fiddly bits necessary to take the HD apart, put it somewhere else and then try again. Boo. Hiss. I need chocolate and red wine and hugs and lots of tea. *pout*

I think that is the Muse's way of telling me that I should just cut my losses and try to re-write it, and this depresses me. I can't actually say I'm surprised. I had not been 100% happy with what I'd written, but there were bits I really liked, and those won't be forthcoming. I'm just going to have to bite the bullet and get on with it. It will be hard; it is a long fic, which lost a lot of steam when I tanked my laptop, and it will take a lot of effort and grunt work to get the old engine moving again.

On the other hand, today I got a phone call from my precious beta, who just wanted to give me some encouragement of course and she did. I will get Chapter 20 going for her. I owe it to her talents not to mope about and just get on with it.

Riding on those coattails is the darkarts_ldws challenge, and this week's challenge has stumped me. I have three irons on the fire, not to mention a little private fic I'm writing for the goddess mimimanderly (which I'm having a ball with), and the excellent sshg_exchange  prompt I received today which is PHENOMENAL and I'm pumped for, but I feel a little silly that I'm whinging on and on about something I love doing so much. I just want them all to be good.

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[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

This is true. And I am feeling less like I can accomplish anything at all with every passing minute.

Seriously, I feel very weird right now.