End of Year Post

Well, I'd be lying if I didn't say I am going to be happy to see the back of 2013. It was a year of change - some very good, some not so good. I am feeling very physically awful right now. I have an ectopic heartbeat, which flares up every once in awhile. The doctors assure me it's not anything critical in the short term. It starts up out of nowhere; this time TheHubs® and I were just sitting there, playing a hidden object game, and it started. It's been going on for a few days, and the biggest problem is that it completely drains me of energy. I know it has something to do with my stomach - I've eaten too much too rich food during Christmas, and that can trigger it.

If history repeats, in a day or two it will go away and I'll be perfectly fine. It lasted over a month a few years ago. I was nearly dragging. Then, one day, out of the blue, it will go back to normal. Until then, I feel dreadful - it exhausts me, it depresses me, and it frightens me, even though I know it's not life-threatening. Just, lift a positive word up for me if you will.

The highlight of the year for me was MISTI-Con. What a weekend! It was wonderful, even if it did cost me

sempraseverus' friendship. I won't go into the dreary details, because they are, and I don't say I'm blameless, but she will no longer speak to me, and that makes me very sad. She was one of my visual Muses, and I vastly underestimated what damage a spoken opinion would do. I am sorry to lose her friendship, but in the end, I tried to fix it and wasn't met halfway. I don't know what caused her to eventually leave LJ, and I don't want to feel that I'm one of the reasons, but she left very shortly after, and while I miss her, I don't know what else I could have done.

It's been a year of great internal conflict for me. Finally letting go of my religion was a huge thing, probably more huge than even I realised. It's caused me to flounder with my Muse and I hate that. I never relinquished my spiritual beliefs, but it certainly made a dent in them. This will be an ongoing challenge in 2014.

So, what do I want to achieve in 2014? Better health, tons of writing. finishing both novels, preparing for my stepdaughter's visit in March, and supporting TheHubs® in his theatrical and musical endeavours. He's had a lot of knocks this year in both departments, and doesn't deserve them. He's a great guy, and I so want him to be happy.

For you, I wish all the best and brightest for 2014. I know many of you have received some devastating blows this year, and you have met them with grace and courage, and I salute for you that. You have been so supportive and wonderful to me, and I am so grateful for your friendship. I hope your new year is perfect.

To my closest friends: no matter what, remember I love you. And create. Write, draw, cook, craft, be creative every day. Being creative, creating, is a sacred thing, a duty, almost. But one of our most happy duties. Only by creating can be truly be one with our spiritual selves and our Muses. Every time you create, you bring something to this earth that has never been seen before. It is unique and special, and should be treated as such.

Happy New Year!!