It Took Its Sweet Time

[teddy_radiator]

Okay, I guess it's official. I'm weird. It's taken a week before the PCD (post con depression) hit me. I was too busy working my fat backside off last week upon my return to notice. Now that I have a little breathing room, I'm having all sorts of strange dreams about con - which involve my father, grandfather, and one of my uncles. All who have passed. They came to see me on Sunday at Con, and I was frantically trying to get to my talk at 11:30, but had to find my notes. WTF, people?

I dreamed about Con all night.

Well, it was a very important experience, and one that was very emotional in many ways for me. I guess everyone feels that way when you are saturated with such intensity for almost a week. The best thing is the friendships I made and the ones I increased, and the insights I gained about others and myself.

To be honest, though, I really need to get cracking on with things, so please, brain, get it out of your system and let me just have the normal strange dreams, TYVM.

Allergies have been reported in the 'Holy Crap, It's Bad' category this year, and I believe it. I've not had a bad bout with allergies in more years that I care to remember, but I'm really struggling. Wheezing, head full of porridge, gummy eyes, the Full Yuck. And allergy medicine, while very effective, knocks me unconscious. The non-drowsy stuff makes my heart race sickeningly, so I just have to deal with it. I either suffer, or sleep.Boo.

The good news is I ran my very dark fic idea by stgulik and not only did she not run screaming from it, but actually said, "It's a solid story line." She also said it was too multi-layered for the prompfest prompt, so I need to save it. This is a good thing; I don't think I could finish it before the end of the month, and I do so want to write it. There are several things I have languishing in my 'Editing in Progress' file that I need to finish, and hopefully now with a little less traumatic work schedule I can to this. I have come to realise that work was seriously burning me out, and I'm still a little bit in recovery mode. The big problem was that nothing looked right anymore. I have sat on a chapter of HM for almost a month because I couldn't tell if it worked or not. It will be good to revisit and see if I have any more clarity of vision over it.

Hugs to everyone who needs them. I know many of my friends are going through a tough time right now; my thoughts are with you, and I hope you find some peace and comfort in everyday tranquility.

Comments

[bloodcult.livejournal.com]

The one con I went to bordered on being entirely too much for me. Too many people hugged me (mine is not a hugging culture). There was so much time spent indoors I had an actual real life panic attack. And afterwards I discovered strangers had taken my photo without my permission. The urge to hide in a hole was great.

On the other side of the coin the intensity of the bonding with the people I am close to a bit overwhelming as well. I wanted to take them home in my pocket.

I don't know that I could ever do it again.

I can certainly see why you'd dream about it.

[akatnamedeaster.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's tough going back to the mundanes after hanging out with people you can completely be yourself around. I've always had a touch of the blues after a fannish get together.

I've also had that feeling of being overwhelmed and my solution is to always have my own room or share with one other low key person. I'm an introvert by nature so I can hit a limit where I need to go and hide.

Man, I'm so sorry I missed out this time around.

[snarkysneak.livejournal.com]

It is hard to get back into the swing of things...exhausting too! You may or may not believe it, but I am actually extremely introverted and have to psych myself up to going to cons. There are soooo many people and so much going on that it is overwhelming. I totally understand your desire to hide. I miss the really late night things at HP and ComicCons because I *have* to get away for 6-8 h or so or I will have a meltdown. I think part of the reason I liked Misti-Con so much is that it was so much smaller than any convention (including science meetings) I have ever attended. I got to spend much more time with a smaller group of people (you and the rest of the room) than normal. It was so nice to be able to actually talk with people. :)

BOO on the allergies. It sucks being allergic to freakin everything, eh?

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!! NEW STORY!!!!

[dickgloucester.livejournal.com]

The crash after my first con was horrible. Look at it this way: you wouldn't be crashing so hard if you hadn't had such a wonderful, fulfilling time. *hugs*

[droxy.livejournal.com]

Hugs. The reason you were in the second room was so you could hide. =) You didn't need to feel guilty about any feelings. We've also been a respite for introverts. The mead tasting- that was Deb's event and due to news folks were getting I thought the diversion was a good thing. We call that second room the introverts room. What we did was very typical of a big or small con. Just that this con was about 500 people tops.

Con is very hard on introverts, but they keep coming back. =) Logospilgrim is the introverts introvert. So is VJ.

I think with you rooming with hubby that you will have your quiet room. Just know you can come hang out with your buddies. =) Our door is always open for Teddy.

Pics are very slow going. I do not like the windows 7 photo manager. the cropping tool sucks. I am posting utube vids from others.

You got me at dark fic..SQUEEEEEEES.

Allergies- AllegraD makes me human.

[beffeysue.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you're having to deal with the "down," but it sounds like you had a great time! I think going to the next con with the Hubs will make for a wonderful week.

I loved you appearance on the fashion show. You make me laugh out loud, girl. Would you like some?

New DARK Fic? Angst? I can't wait!

*Hugs to you and the Hubs*

[stgulik.livejournal.com]

Saying a story line is "solid" is one of my highest beta compliments. You probably know this! Now, just make sure the plot begins by Chapter 3, and we'll truly have an accord.

[darklotus1211.livejournal.com]

I got to see your tea dominatrix outfit in the vid droxy posted of the fashion parade and now, thanks to the link, I got to see the outfit with the cape droxy made - both outfits are marvellous, my dear!

I'm glad you enjoyed con, even though it was a bit overwhelming at times. As you said, next time, with hubs along and knowing what to expect you'll have no problems, I'm sure!

As to the allergies - have you tried Claratyne (drug name Loratadine) Syrup? Like you, I have problems with both drowsy and non drowsy allergy meds (I'm out for 12hours minimum on anythng like polaramine or fenergan and most non drowsies give me palpitations) but the Clarityne seems to work without any of those nasties happening. If you haven't already, and it's available in the US, give it a try. Always read the contraindications and any possible side effects online first, of course, but you may find it does the trick.

edited because I spelt Claratyne wrong...AGAIN! (I have a mental block regarding it)