Well, I Survived...

[teddy_radiator]

Actually, I did better than survive. I had worked myself into such a state that I didn't shed a tear.

Not one.

Now, beforehand, listening to the soundtrack, I bawled my eyes out, and this entire week, I've been approaching this like a root canal. But in the theatre, surrounded by strangers, I couldn't give vent to my grief. I couldn't do it.

Kela cried like a baby.

But I loved it, and enjoyed every minute of it, and was touched unbearably. It delivered. Oh, yes, it did.

I won't say more than that. I thought it was marvelous, and I look forward to the day it comes out in DVD, and I can sit in my own little room in my own little chair, and properly enjoy it. Away from the eyes of strangers. Then I'll cry.

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[savine-snape.livejournal.com]

I do it all over again in five hours :)

Taking more tissues!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I loved it, and I'm still shocked I didn't cry. I think I just worked myself up to such a pitch, and I found I could deal with it. But simply beautiful. AR's performance was just beautiful from the first scene to the last.

[savine-snape.livejournal.com]

Second time was harder because I knew that 'that' scene was coming and it tore me to bits.

[howlingmojo.livejournal.com]

Awwww, I share that sentiment. This film, more than any others, manages to stay faithful to the tone of the book. There's a lot of nifty little things ( Minnie:"I always wanted to use that spell!") and overall it was enjoyable to hear the people in the theater applaud when Bellatrix bit the dust.

But other than that, I don't think I have the strength of heart to see it twice in theater. I usually take my brother, who hasn't read any of the books and we wind up discussing the people and the plot. But this time...No.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

It was beautiful, and had some blissful moments of "YES!". Actually, I'm still puzzled as to why I didn't cry. I had a handful of tissues in my hand from the beginning and didn't use them. Most unlike me. I cry at the drop of a hat.

But the scene was devastating, and AR moved me right down to my toes. When I watch it in private, then I will be able to properly grieve.

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you enjoyed it, Sweetie! It often happens that we anticipate such drama and so many tears, that when the actual event happens... well, it's a bit anticlimactic, really. We can imagine so many worse things than what usually happens.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Yes, I think so. Funny now, that I'm done and the excitement and anticipation is over, I'm crying here typing to you. It was beautiful, and AR was just perfection as an exhausted, frightened, resigned Severus. Now that I remember some of the scenes in my head, I'm crying like a baby, but I just couldn't grieve there in a theatre full of strangers.

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

I find myself holding back the tears NOW, and I haven't seen it yet. I don't think that it's Snape's death, per se, that troubles me. I mean, technically, that happened several years ago, when the book came out. No, it's that it's the last movie, and that kind of wraps up the whole franchise. We're not so much mourning Snape, but the end of an era.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Oh, this morning I've been crying like crazy. I think you're right. I found his moments unbearably moving, but I just couldn't mourn in public. I thought AR was simply beautiful in this film. He embodied desolation, resignation and exhaustion throughout, and the flashback scenes were heartbreaking. Dumbledore was a BASTARD.

[bulletimescully.livejournal.com]

Oh, I've been waiting on a reason to really dislike Dumbledore... he really is a manipulative prick, if you look close enough. Using Severus' love for Lily, and his guilt over her death to make him watch over Harry, just so Harry could die "at the proper moment." JKR herself said that if Severus hadn't loved Lily that he wouldn't have given a flip about Harry either way.

I can't wait to see AR's performance... Dan Radcliffe has praised him over and over again... even saying that he should get an Oscar nom for Best Supporting Actor.

[bulletimescully.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad to hear you say that it touched you so profoundly... and I can breath a bit easier now, knowing that 'it delivered' for you as well... Mimi's right... the anticipation is usually the worst of it...

I'm going to get through the next 12 hours or so my writing something happy, I think.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I was so afraid I'd come out of the theatre crying like a baby, but I didn't. It's so like me. It even bothered me to the point that the Hubs and I sat up until almost 4am discussing it. I think I just didn't want to give full vent to it.

But it was beautiful, and I know I'll cry my eyes out when I have a chance to watch it alone. My family likes to grieve in private. The music was stupendous, and I did a lot of my crying before we left for the cinema.

[stgulik.livejournal.com]

What? I can't believe you didn't cry after all that. I'm relieved you and rivertempest and these others liked it, though. My turn tonight.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I think because I was just too aware of being in a room full of people I didn't know. It would be too personal.

I thought it was marvelous. Somethings I didn't agree with, but AR was simply beautiful to me throughout the entire film. He was perfection.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I didn't either. I usually cry at the drop of a hat, but it wasn't because I didn't think it was beautiful. I loved it, but I just couldn't cry over a character I loved so much in a room full of strangers.

I was the same way when I mourned for my Dad. At the funeral, I couldn't shed a tear. It was only later, alone, that I could give over to my grief. It's a rainy, dark day today; how very apt.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Whoo hoo! That will be enough to finish this one and maybe start on another!!! Oh, thank you. That's just too fantastic. Now that's the kind of bad math I like! Wow, that is going to look so freakin' amazing when I'm done with it.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

*hugs to you, my precious friend* I know you are, and I love him because you do, and for you to love him so means he must have been so very special... Of course you will reunite, but I know how much you miss him regardless.

I know what you mean about the film - I think the music was stunningly beautiful, and AR's performance touched me, but I could not feel it. I could only feel it when I got home.

SQUEEEEEEEEEE to the corkage!!! Thank you so much for thinking of me! You're so, so good to me.

I love you, Sempra.

[justpinkpastel.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad that it has exceeded your expectations. I can't wait until tomorrow morning when I finally get to see it!

I was sitting here this morning talking to the Hubs, telling him that he better be prepared for me to bawl like a baby in the theater. He asked why would I be crying, just for Snape?

And I really started thinking about it. I realized that no, it's not just for Severus. Other characters that I thoroughly enjoyed reading die, too. And this is the FINAL movie. There will be no more after this. It's an end of an era. A chapter in my life is coming to an end. A time that I have taken great pleasure in seems to be passing by my very eyes. It seems to be a fog that I cannot hold onto and keep here with me. I'm not ready for this wild ride to end just yet, but I know that it's time to.

Yes, I will be crying for Severus. But I will also be crying for myself and all those that feel the same as I do.

Luckily, there is still fanfiction....

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Well, that's it, isn't it? We have been caught up in this lovely era, but let's face it, the books ended years ago, and the films will live forever. I cannot imagine that this will be the last of Potter from JKR. I just can't.

And fanfiction will still be enjoyable. When it stops being enjoyable, and Dahlra and I don't have anything more to say, I'll move on. Right now, I'm working on an original story, but I'm still doing fanfic because I love doing it. It's like my pleasure. Original fic is my meat and potatoes, but fanfic is the chocolate mousse, the creme brulee, the truffles... Geez, I need to eat something!

[sandlappershell.livejournal.com]

Just got back from seeing it. I cried...didn't sob. Bit the hell out of the inside of my lip when that tear rolled down his cheek. Now, I'm welling up again. The movie was good beginning to end, I liked it better than the book mostly because, other than 'The Prince's Tale' I DESPISED DH.

[severus49.livejournal.com]

I couldn't. I just could not see it. I'm like, dreading it really badly. I want to take my 11 y.o. b/c she's the only one who's read the last book (besides me) in the house, so I'll take her to the matinee. I told her to beware because I'm going to start a chant "Snape didn't die. Snape didn't die", LOL! I have to make fun of it, otherwise I'll be shaking like a leaf from nerves.

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[tally1302.livejournal.com]

Yay I'm glad you liked it :) I also didn't cry when he died... I think I had done a good enough job of prepping myself for it. But then with the flashback... when he found Lilly in the Potter place... omg :(

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[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Yes, that scene still haunts me... I just couldn't grieve in a room full of strangers...

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[tally1302.livejournal.com]

Well I was in between two friends who were weeping their eyes out and no one else could see me, so that made it easier :)