It Is Finished!!!!!

[teddy_radiator]

Today marks a very important day for me. Today I finished the final draft of the final chapter in book two of my three-part Her Minder series. This has been an incredible journey, from answering a dare from a friend in 2010 to the decision in 2012 to completely start over and rewrite it. What started out as basically an erotic story has turned into a real novel, with characters I have come to love and cherish, a storyline that has both a long and several short arcs, suspense, conflict, emotions, joy, sadness and satisfaction.

In a way, I feel like this story has encapsulated my life, and is actually an autobiography of sorts (although I never worked for an Intelligence Agency), and finishing this first important milestone has left me feeling both elated and a little sad. The journey has been thrilling and hard. At times, writing it was like flying - effortless and fun and full of adventure. At times it was a hard slog, and I've lost count of the times I truly thought I should give it all up. There have been moments where I've read it and thought, "Damn, this is good," and just as many when I've thought, "This is shit." I have never in my life felt such life-affirming joy and self-defeating doubt, sometimes both at once.

For so long, I thought of this as just 'editing' the original story, but one day I was reading through it and realised that I had essentially written two books over the course of the past two years. This was not a matter of editing a few SPaG problems. This was a major reworking of the original story - huge parts were taken out, and a major storyline put in. I didn't rewrite Her Minder. I wrote an entirely new story based on the original. When I realised that, I didn't feel half as bad for taking so long. The original story was 25 chapters long. This one is 37 and will be broken into two separate books - The Doctor, The Chine, and the last will be called Silverbirch. The Doctor and The Chine are complete; Silverbirch is about 1/2 way there.

I'm now itching to start on the third book of the series (a lot of it is already written), but now I know that the hard part starts. Sending this off to publishers, getting rejection letter after rejection letter (or nothing at all), getting up my hopes and having them dashed. And through it all, the hope that someone will like what they read. I may end up self-publishing, but I will promote the hell out of it. I really do believe in this story.

I have so many people to thank for their time and skill and expertise in helping me through this long process. noxiaa, for all the early alpha reading and sterling advice, toblass for her alpha/beta reading and encouragement, jenidralph for read throughs and a fresh pair of eyes, beffeysue for enabling me at times to be able to keep my part-time job and write. All of you have been so encouraging, and I really couldn't have done it without your help. Thank you also to errandofmercy and tychesong for your input as well.

I also need to thank especially kmhmd, for inspiring me to write it in the first place. Your friendship and support and cheerleading kept me going when I was ready to give up.

The person who has made the biggest difference has unsurprisingly been stgulik. She read through the original, and said, "I don't like it."

I said, "Please, help me make it better." I knew that the fault lay with me and my characterisation. I believed in the characters so much, and if they weren't people you rooted for and loved, it was my fault. I begged her to help me, and the day she said, "yes" was the day I knew I could make this story work. She has been more than a best friend. She has been more than an editor. She has been tough and encouraging, and hysterically funny and uncompromisingly firm and ruthless when it was needed, and boy, was it needed. I trust her with my life, and the lives of my characters, because her loyalty has always been to them and the story, even when she wasn't all that crazy about it. I cannot thank her enough or stress her importance enough in what I do. If this series has any success at all, it is due in no small part to her. Jules, I love you so much. Collaborating with you has been the most satisfying project I've ever completed. It's not perfect, and there may be more changes down the line, but I've given this story the best of what I had within me.

I don't know what the future will hold. I know it will be full of rejection, but I know I've created characters I love and others have grown to love. And I want to thank you all for the good karma you've sent my way, and the love and encouragement you've given to this insecure old sinner. You all have made it possible for me to believe in myself.

Comments

[toblass.livejournal.com]

Congrats, Teddy!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thank you sweetie! And Thank you again for all the encouragement and love. You are a great friend.

[akatnamedeaster.livejournal.com]

Congratulations in completing this first, most important step in realizing something you've been working towards for a long time. You must feel great this morning. :)

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I do feel pretty good. I'm going to take a couple of days off, then start reading it from cover to cover, just as a final check. Then comes the tough part.

[iulia_linnea.livejournal.com]

Congratulations!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[kellychambliss.livejournal.com]

Congratulations, dear Teddy! That's a major accomplishment and something to be proud of. I look forward to the published versions (having no doubt that we'll see them some day).

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Kelly, you are the epitome of everything that's good about this fandom, and the internet's ability to allow us to connect with one another. Thank you for being such a supportive friend.

[tamlane.livejournal.com]

Congratulations, Teddy!!!! Wishing you the best as you look for a publisher!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Tams. I'm going to need it. But I am so rich in friends and support.

[beffeysue.livejournal.com]

Reading this makes me so happy!!! I love you, dearest Teddy. And what may be even more important, I believe in you.

You have made an old woman smile. :)

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Oh, Beffey, thank you so much. I love you to bits. You are an amazing friend, and am so grateful to JK Rowling for introducing us to one another. ;)

Thank you for believing. That means more than I can say.

[dickgloucester.livejournal.com]

Congratulations!

And yes, a good editor is worth her weight in gold.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

Jules is beyond price. I don't feel comfortable wriitng my own LJ posts without her looking at them anymore.

[smallbrownfrog.livejournal.com]

Three cheers and one cheer more!

On the subject of the upcoming rejections. I once set a goal of filling up a wall with rejection slips. Somehow that made each "no" feel like visible progress.

[stgulik.livejournal.com]

I like this idea!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

As to the 'rejection wall: Sounds like a plan! :)

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

I seem to remember reading, in his book, On Writing, that Stephen King kept all his rejection letters on a wall at one time. Apparently there were many. I doubt he has that problem now, however, and who knows -- you may get there, too! I think that you stand a good chance of succeeding; otherwise, why would Dahlra have put you up to it?

Good luck, Sweetie!

[sabrebabe.livejournal.com]

::happydances::

Yay! Stick with going after publishers! Keep in mind how many Jo Rowling went through before she was picked up.

And we all know how that ended! :D

::hugs and dancing::

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thank you, babe. You are such a dear. ♥

[ex-logospil.livejournal.com]

Congratulations! ♥

[dreamy-dragon73.livejournal.com]

Congrats!

[lemonade8.livejournal.com]

I am so happy for you!! (I still have the original copy on my jump drive.) So when it gets published, however it gets published, let me know and I will buy some and promote for you as well. ((hugs))

Congratulations!!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

That makes me so happy that you have the original - I hope you will enjoy the story even more now. I'm taking a couple of days off, then I'll start putting together Query letters.

Thank you so much for always being there with a kind and supportive word. It means so much to me.

[shadowycat.livejournal.com]

What a wonderful accomplishment! Congratulations! And best of luck getting the books out there for everyone to read! :D

[sshg-addict.livejournal.com]

Congrats Teddy!

Continued best wishes in writing the third part. Here is one fan who can't wait to read the final product. :)

[hikorichan.livejournal.com]

Congratulations :) What an awesome accomplishment!

[kittylefish.livejournal.com]

congratulations! hooray! *tosses confetti* that's an amazing accomplishment and something to be quite proud of. i hope it lands in the hands of someone who appreciates it and you find a publisher. i will send positive publishing vibes. ;)

[arwitchywoman.livejournal.com]

Congratulations - you are rightfully proud, happy, relieved, and anxious to start the next stage! I'm anxious to find it once its published!

[hbart.livejournal.com]

Congratulatuons, Teddy! What a big accomplishment!

[alwaysimploding.livejournal.com]

Wow! Great job, you should be proud of yourself!

Congratulations!

[jenidralph.livejournal.com]

I'm so happy and excited for you! I know how much this means to you (and I can't wait to read it, myself)! I know I didn't really do all that much, but I am still amazed that you trusted me enough to allow me to be a part of it when I was able. :) *squishy hugs*