SED - 05 October 2013

[teddy_radiator]

It's been a lovely day here in sunny SC - damn hot, though. It's still almost 80 degrees. When you think that some of our August days never got about 74, that's flippin' hot for October. I'm failing in the patience category when we go out - no a/c in the van means that trips outside the house are just misery. My temper is short and my concentration even shorter.

Today was nice, though, inspite of the unseasonal weather. TheHubs(r) had play rehearsal today. They open in just over a week, and I think he's worried at how far along they are NOT in terms of having it ready. He has additional rehearsals tomorrow, and kmhmd is coming over for one of our fangurl squee and food sessions. We've been cleaning up so she won't catch something and I won't die of shame when she arrives.

Our old cat, Mouse, has some sort of abscess under his chin; we noticed a couple of days ago a dark patch on his normally white chin, but didn't think too much about it. Besides, he is a bastard to deal with and will fight like a raging tiger if you try to do anything more than pick him up and hold him. We chanced it today, and something really doesn't look good under there. With Mouse, it's always so hard to know if anything's wrong. He has the apetite of a horse and is a little too stupid to mope around, so he never gives you any indication something is wrong until you see something growing out the side of him.

I made the executive decision to post Labour of Love on Ash and TPP, in hopes it will spur me on to finish it. I really don't have that far to go, now that I've cut out a huge sideplot and made it more or less a PWP with Benefits. Still, I like it, and irishredlass really wanted it finished, so off I go. Ash hasn't posted it yet, but you can read it at TPP HERE.

In spite of the fact that everything really is clipping along apace, I am feeling this sort of wistful melancholy, which I think may be down to the change of seasons and the general time of year. It's stupid, really; I adore October; it's my favourite month, and yet it's also the one that I get blue during. I think the notion of everything winding down gets me to thinking about death, and loss and I get sad. Not complete depression, just a little bit of a funk. It'll pass, and I'll be fine. I know I'm not the only one who is affected this way, and when the rubber meets the road, I really have very little to moan about. See? I feel better already, just by sharing this with you.

And it's nice to feel a little bit productive - clothes and dishes and floors have been cleaned, fall decorations have been placed, woodsy, spicy candles are burning, and the house feels homey and calm. I have candy corn in the dish beside me, TheHubs(r) playing a game behind me, another chapter of HM almost done, and one of my favourite people in the world is coming to visit tomorrow. Life is good.

I'd like to leave you with this lovely photograph, which reminded me of my beloved couple Dahlra and Sydney:

Comments

[akatnamedeaster.livejournal.com]

Aww, boo, I'm sorry you're having a downbeat day. I think a lot of us are getting into hibernation mode and that sort of goes along with it. Here's to a happy upcoming Samhain to boost everyone's spirits.

And hugs and well wishes to Mouse, even if he would scratch my eyes out for it.

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

I, too, have felt a little down lately for no apparent reason. I chalk it up to the waning of the year: summer's gone, and here in Delaware, if you sneeze, you can completely miss autumn. We seem to usually go directly from too bloody hot to too bloody cold in a matter of days. Every season has its beauty, but it reminds me of how quickly time goes by. And that reminds me that there are fewer days before me than are behind me. I HAVE been feeling a bit better lately: I had a good cry last evening and that really helped. Never underestimate the catharsis of a good cry. It makes me wonder if possibly these dark episodes are caused by some sort of toxin that is released through tears.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I'm starting to wonder the same thing. I've felt this urge to cry, which is why I posted that poem earlier. I feel like I could really use a good one, but TheHubs(r) just really doesn't get it, and when I cry for no reason, he gets almost angry. His British stiff-upper-lipism just can't deal with it.

I think a goodly part of mine is hormonal as well. Lots of signs - restless sleep, itchy skin, hot flashes, all those wonderful things Menopause has to offer. At least the painters haven't been in in a good six months, so maybe they have finally retired.

I think it would behoove me to just go to bed early one night and let it go. For a person who cries very easily (and I do at the drop of a hat), I seem to be holding back. Perhaps on some level I'm afraid that once I start, I won't be able to reign it in.

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I always have to wait until Paul leaves for work if I want to have a good cry. He doesn't get it either. He starts acting all needy, asking if it's something he did or didn't do, and just pesters me for an explanation... which I cannot give because I do not know why I cry. I only know that I feel so much better when I stop. And there's no way I can have a "private cry'; my whole face turns this bright red and my eyelids swell up. VERY attractive. Also a dead give-away. I find that the shower is a great place to have a cry because a.) I'm already wet anyway, and b.) the steam from the shower keeps my nose from getting all clogged. Even in my misery, I try to be practical, LOL....

[madeleone]

Yup, the year is winding down. I don't know where the time goes. Seems like I say that all the time, but it's true nonetheless.

Looking forward to reading Labour of Love, I remember when you started posting on your LJ, but it's been so long I'll be happy to read it all over again when it's done.

I love the pic, it is the perfect depiction of your characters. I have the original Her Minder from (was is smashwords?) So I will be interested in reading the new and improved version.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Yes, time is just flying. This year has been stupendously short.

I think you will be pleasantly surprised with the changes. Some have been major, and several chapters have been dropped while others were added. I feel like I needed to use what I've learned to make it better, and I truly hope I have.

[lynnylou.livejournal.com]

It seems like this time of year gets me down as well. I really not looking forward to the winter it supposed to be a bad one. I hope you feel better soon. *hugs*

I hope Mouse is okay.

[irishredlass.livejournal.com]

Squee! I am so excited I know that the reviews will prompt you to continue!

You and I both had busy cleaning days!

{{hugs}}