Heading To The Airport

[teddy_radiator]

The Hubs and I are getting ready to head back to ATL to take his kids back. It's been a great couple of weeks together. I feel wretched and out of sorts, because I know we'll have to say goodbye. We have laughed, eaten great food, engaged in great arguments (Daughter will argue with a sign post and has the debate logic of a string bean, and son is always right even when he isn't), and they've been great fun. They've been generous and sweet, buying us goodies and spoiling us (daughter bought me a great little trashy novel, from a publisher that I wish to persue for my original fic). Saying goodbye is going to be hard because we'll cry and will most of the way home, and I'm not looking forward to that.

It also means we have to make our big decisions now regarding the shop. We've put it off until they left, and now we have to make our decisions. Things were going pretty good, but now we have to make the big one - do we stay, or do we go? So many people are rooting for us to stay - I want it, but I'm not sure we can. I'm certainly not in the best frame of mind to make such important decisions today, so we'll put it off until we can get a week of work under our belts.

Writing Chapter 16 of LML. It is by far the hardest chapter I've written yet. I have literally stripped, it, sanded it down, repainted it, stripped it again, resanded and varnished it until it bears no resemblance at all to the original chapter. I am finally happy with it, but I've lost my betas, and my alpha is so snowed under with her other committments, I think I'm going to have to do this one myself. Poor mods at Ash! Last week, I only had one mistake on Chapter 15! Heaven knows what awaits me now!

I wrote a naughty little ficlet for Sempraseverus' birthday, called The Sensual World, and after I gave it to her I asked her to tell me if she thought it was worth posting, and she said she did, so I've posted the first two chapters for it. It is a tale of Dom/sub, with sub!Severus. It is not the typical Dom!Hermione fighting to subjugate the Potions master; it's more of a story of Hermione trying to learn to be a Dom in order to better assist Severus in healing. I don't bog down in the psychological aspects of a D/s lifestyle. I'm afraid I'd put my readers to sleep, but it's full of lemons and is just a piece of fun PWP - definitely NOT to be taken seriously!!

When we return, the Hubs has promised to get us started on the well-anticipated writing nook. I think we will need to occupy ourselves so we just don't sit around moping all evening. The house will be so quiet without them. The cats will miss them. So will I.

Comments

[melusin-79.livejournal.com]

All the best for your shop whatever you decide to do with it. And where did you put that domHermione fic?

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

It's at Ashwinder. No where near as good as yours, and a bit of a different setup. It is more of a Romance D/s story, without the psychological aspects you brought in so well. It's really just a PWP with a little sprinkling of plot!

[clairvoyant.livejournal.com]

The empty nest can be a sad thing, I imagine. It will be many years before I get to experience that. But in the meantime, teddy, you've got plenty to keep you busy between writing and creating your writing nook. Good luck! :D

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thank you! We're going to chill tonight. The Hubs is still upset and we both cried all the way home, but we have things to look forward to and decisions to be made. I just know we don't need to make any big decisions anytime in the next few days. As the Hubs said, the decisions will most likely be made for us.

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

Hopefully you will have something in the mail when you come home to take your mind off things! I tried to time it so, so we'll see....

Please don't make a decision when you are in a bad mood; when you're in that state, you're apt to see things as being worse than they really are. Wait until you are both feeling a bit more upbeat, and THEN talk about it. You will think more clearly then. I hope you two find a way to make it work for you!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Guess what was in the mailbox when we arrived home? Something lovely and smelling of Mimi - SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

I've just got in, so I haven't opened it yet. I'm going to treat myself this evening and open and droll over each one!!!! Thank you for being such a great friend.

We cried all the way home. Son had an epiphany yesterday; it was as if he found his Muse...it was a magical thing. But we've blubbed all the way home, because they cried when we left them at the airport, especially son.... :(

[helgeke.livejournal.com]

Best wishes for your decisio nmaking and good to hear that you have taken time for that :)

The Sensual World sounds like fun reading, where are you posting it?

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thanks, babe. I have the first two chapters loaded on Ashwinder - so when they go through all my mistakes (I have no beta on this one), I'll get it posted. I hope you enjoy it!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I can't wait! We're both upset and weepy....on top of that, There's been some backstabbing bull$#/t at the theatre where the Hubs and I perform...someone dissin' us... drama queens and real hateful people...last thing I need right now...feeling vulnerable and tired...Mimi's cards are just what I need to cheer me up...

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

They are beyond awesome!! She's one sexy artists...I am trying to get up the nerve...DahlraMuse is nagging me to draw... I'm nervous but he's insistent...Mimi's Muse is nagging too...I suppose yours will join the choir any minute...giggle...

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I just opened it, and it is so beautiful it took my breath away! I just stared at them forever! I have never done a rune card reading, so Mimi gave me a guide. I can't wait to give myself a reading. Mimi's cards are so inspired; the Muse was ravishing her over them!

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

I'm getting right there, baby!! We're good at being there for one another...he's supportive and he and the Muse are buddies...

The cards are the best! I'm putting the writing nook together...photos to come soon, and I'll have the perfect place to read...

[beffeysue.livejournal.com]

*hugs you and Hubs gently* I know how hard it can be to come back to "the empty nest," and I hope you'll hear from the kids soon.

Please try not to worry about the shop (I know, it's like trying to swim up Niagra Falls). Perhaps in a few days you'll be in a better place to make decisions. As for the hateful drama queens, piss on 'em.

*hugs you again*

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Bethie...we just came home and the Hubs is so upset he can't stop crying and this horrible woman is slagging him and I off...I won't go into the dreary details, but it was very hurtful and totally uncalled for....I can't bear seeing my man hurting, but to have someone say such cruel things just makes my blood boil. I don't like folks messing with my family...I'm going to give her a piece of my mind when I see her...

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

Don't descend to her level; being civil to her would show her (and everyone in the vicinity) that you are a much better person than she is. I don't know what she said, but it is said that when we criticize others, it is usually for something we see in ourselves and dislike. Nothing is to be gained by drawing out ill feelings. Let it go -- not because it will make HER feel better... but because it will make YOU feel better.

[teddyradiator.livejournal.com]

You are totally right. I spoke in complete anger and just wanted to lash out. We are upset and sad, and to come home and hear about this just made me so angry. I hate anyone slagging the Hubs; he's so talented and that theatre is lucky to have someone of his caliber showing interest in it.

The woman said that she 'hoped he didn't ruin his play by casting Teddy in it.' This is a horrible person, and it just angers me. I'm no good at confrontation, so by the time I see her I will just ignore her, but it is hard to ignore such hurtful things. I think of myself as a fairly good actor; and to imply that the Hubs would case me just because I'm his wife really hurt.

[mimimanderly.livejournal.com]

Sounds like she's just jealous. She probably has doubts about her own acting ability and is transferring those feelings onto you by her implications. People with good self-esteem do not go around saying mean things about other people. Obviously the only way she feels good about herself is by cutting other people down to size. It's sad, really.