Well, I've been doing that for the past couple of years. Not exactly like you wrote, but similar. When people ask me how I am, I always answer I'm great. Even if I have a killing migraine, or am in a bad mood, I say great. Because they don't need to hear about my problems. They also ask me how I can always be in a good mood. Well, why would I be in a bad mood? I have a roof over my house, food on the table, I have a job that allows me all that. I have people in my life that make me feel if not happy, then content. I may be in in love with a taken man, but that's how it is. I am okay with that, because I know it will pass. I may lack some things I want to have, but I can survive without them. I make do as I am. I smile a lot. Even to myself. Even if I look like a lunatic. I laugh at myself when I make a stupid mistake. Because I know that life is way too short to be in a bad mood. I think about things that could be, will be, are happening. I fantasise. I hope. And I keep myself firmly in reality. I tell myself constantly that my happiness doesn't depend on others. Because it doesn't. If it did, I would probably be six feet under by now, I admit. Even when people comment on how I can be happy when I'm single, and don't have kids... Well, it sucks for you that your happines depends on that. I am content with my life as it is. If there's a man for me in the future, he's welcome. If it's not, if love doesn't happen, so what? I'm not the only one, and certainly not the last one that won't have someone by her side. And I'm okay with that. I have other things that fullfill my life.
I know that this sounds incredible, that a person can be content as I am. That didn't happen just overnight. It took me a while to realise that some people just like winding people up for their own pleasure, to make them miserable. Not all people are there to give you a helping hand when you need it. Some just stand there and watch you drown. I am still full of insecurities, yes. I will always worry about the future. Because that's my personality. I will always be insecure about some small things. But that is who I am. I will try to change some of them, and some I will leave be, because they make me feel alive, they remind me that I am only human. God know I am a perfectionist, and I expect perfection from others too. And I constantly have to remind myself that I, and the rest, are only human. That we all make mistakes.
And I never had flat abs. Flabby, yes, flat, no =)
Sorry for the long post, but I had a lot to say. So, dear Teddy, it's never too late to change the way you think.
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Date: 2013-09-22 05:29 pm (UTC)When people ask me how I am, I always answer I'm great. Even if I have a killing migraine, or am in a bad mood, I say great. Because they don't need to hear about my problems.
They also ask me how I can always be in a good mood. Well, why would I be in a bad mood? I have a roof over my house, food on the table, I have a job that allows me all that. I have people in my life that make me feel if not happy, then content. I may be in in love with a taken man, but that's how it is. I am okay with that, because I know it will pass.
I may lack some things I want to have, but I can survive without them. I make do as I am.
I smile a lot. Even to myself. Even if I look like a lunatic. I laugh at myself when I make a stupid mistake. Because I know that life is way too short to be in a bad mood.
I think about things that could be, will be, are happening. I fantasise. I hope. And I keep myself firmly in reality.
I tell myself constantly that my happiness doesn't depend on others. Because it doesn't. If it did, I would probably be six feet under by now, I admit. Even when people comment on how I can be happy when I'm single, and don't have kids... Well, it sucks for you that your happines depends on that. I am content with my life as it is. If there's a man for me in the future, he's welcome. If it's not, if love doesn't happen, so what? I'm not the only one, and certainly not the last one that won't have someone by her side. And I'm okay with that. I have other things that fullfill my life.
I know that this sounds incredible, that a person can be content as I am. That didn't happen just overnight. It took me a while to realise that some people just like winding people up for their own pleasure, to make them miserable. Not all people are there to give you a helping hand when you need it. Some just stand there and watch you drown.
I am still full of insecurities, yes. I will always worry about the future. Because that's my personality. I will always be insecure about some small things. But that is who I am. I will try to change some of them, and some I will leave be, because they make me feel alive, they remind me that I am only human. God know I am a perfectionist, and I expect perfection from others too. And I constantly have to remind myself that I, and the rest, are only human. That we all make mistakes.
And I never had flat abs. Flabby, yes, flat, no =)
Sorry for the long post, but I had a lot to say. So, dear Teddy, it's never too late to change the way you think.