I understand that feeling of reaching a certain age and realizing you're not where you thought you'd be by that time--we're relatively close in age. But it's interesting to me that you brought this up in a post with Amy Winehouse. Maybe there's something to that struggle. Think of how many people who are doing well in their "dreamed of" fields, especially at a young age, blow it all on some addiction. Maybe there's something to be thankful for in the struggle.

*hugs*