all I could think about was how freakishly unaffected I felt.

That's where I was and I felt oddly guilty about it. There were people who wrote me to tell me that they were wondering if I was okay and worried about how I'd handled the news and it felt awful to say, while it was a sad thing and I was hurting for the people who were very affected and for my fandom which seemed to be in mourning, that I myself, was fine. I never enjoyed the HP films and I while had enjoyed AR's work in the films I'd watched him in, I never had the sort of connection to him on a personal so many people I know seemed to.

It's one of those things that you really can't expect a uniform reaction to, everyone's going to deal with it in the way they have to.