I have a lot to say about this, so settle in young lady. I was actually glad to hear you say that you hid and that you feel like your brand of mourning was inappropriate. Not because I want you to feel bad about your week, but because you said exactly what I was feeling. On the other side. I was shocked to see that Alan Rickman died, especially on the heels of David Bowie. I hadn't even known he was sick. I'm not sure if that is because I don't keep up with celebrity news much, or because British actors are so much more classy about their private lives than many in Hollywood. But I took to social media where people were crying their eyes out, staying home from work, devastated by this news, and all I could think about was how freakishly unaffected I felt. I actually felt guilty that I took five minutes out of my day to grieve the loss, then went about my day. I, too, had to stay off social media because people's reactions made me feel bad about my lack thereof. I think perhaps for me, I work in a business where death is a daily thing, and it isn't that I've removed the import from a person's life and death, but that I've become a little numb in order to survive the constant blow of losing someone. That said, I'm something of an expert on grief and loss, so I will say to you (and to myself), the only right way to grieve and mourn is your own way. No two people are alike, and no one can tell you how you should react to a situation, or how you should feel, or how you should respond. So, hide if you want. Spew forth tributes if you want. But don't ever apologize for something you've not done wrong. *hugs you*. If I'm going to hide for anything, it'll be because we sent a blizzard your way. Sorry. :)